Sleepless in Idaho..

Well, we bit the bullet and bought my DD a boxer puppy for her birthday. YES..a Boxer. Our intensions were to get a small dog, but while at the Humane Society I spotted one and told my husband how much I liked the looks of the dog. He was THRILLED because he loves them. They look muscular and strong. :)

While at FAME in Boise Karli met Monica Brant and was even though she was little...she just loved her. She couldn't quit talking about her. SO she asked me yesterday if she could name her dog Monica. I said how about Mo. Then she decided to add Jo for her middle name since that is her middle name. So I guess her name is MoJo. LOL



Needless to say I'm the one getting up with her at night to let her out to potty. But, she is so cute I can handle it. My motherly instincts have kicked in. ;)

I am on C day 24 and am spotting. I feel strong today. I have to admit friday, sat and sun I felt emotional. Started a little pity party in my head, but knew it had to be PMS..so I fought it off.

Today was the grueling stairs at work. Four times up and down don't seem like much, but I was dying!! One of the miners hits it 25 times. I told him I will beat him by the end of this year. :) I LOVE competitions.




eats will be right on track. Elk, greens, apple, turkey burger, yams.

WATER,WATER,WATER!!!!

Hope everyone else is having a FANTASTIC week. Let's make it a GREAT one!!!

XOXOXOXOXO

Quickie!!!

Just a quick check in. I am on FIRE with my Attitude and I LOVE IT!!!

I keep envisioning myself as one "HOT" BuffMother success story. ;)

Payroll is COMPLETE and now I can breathe again. Don't know why I get so stressed, but I do.

Workout will be posted tonight for today and yesterday. Forgot my papers at home and I can't remember.

Eats have been right on.

I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL day.

Let's ALL take time today and compliment ourselves. See the Beauty no flaws. WE ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDRFULLY MADE!!!

"God created me and I am always beautiful in His eyes.”

“With God’s help, I can have a healthy and lean body.”

“I celebrate my body and realize it is not the sum of who I am.”

“I can enjoy life without always thinking about how I look.”

“I am focusing on my strengths more than my perceived flaws.”

Calling ALL Prayer Warriors!!

PLEASE pray for Jonnae!!!!!!

Jonnae's Test Results 4/21

The "giant" lives and Jonnae has one last stone to take him out.
The bone marrow aspiration confirmed that Jonnae's leukemia is back. Well, actually it wasn't gone completely. Apparently one cell can be hiding out and that's enough for it to split, multiply and eventually "explode" into blasts of cells, which is what has happened. So here we go again. It didn't take two minutes for Jonnae to say, "well I've gone through this twice, I can do it again." Each time she relapses her chances are slimmer to beating it. The doctors aren't real hopeful and really paint a grim picture. It doesn't shake her. She is a ROCK. Amazing, strong, unbelievable don't explain this angel I call my daughter.

Our plan of action is to start her on some vincristine and steroids tomorrow to "put a cap on it" long enough for her to go home, spend some time with her family, friends and beloved dog before aggressive chemo begins on Monday. This is a one last shot effort. After a week of chemo, we wait for a period of two to three weeks to see if she goes into remission and then we go into a maintenance phase before going at it some more. If she doesn't go into remission it's only a matter of time before we lose. There isn't much hope beyond that. This is really a "shot in the dark" for there are no answers at this point.

I have alot of emotions going on. I don't want to think about losing her, but I must not turn a blind eye to that possibility. I feel I am as prepared as a mother can be, but don't really know if I am. How could I be? All I can do is keep a constant eye on the coach of all coaches. Live by His word, know and trust that I/we are exactly where we are supposed to be and continue to rely on His mercy and grace to carry us through this unceasing storm.

We will go home tomorrow, check labs on Thursday, she's planning a sleep over with friends on Friday, looking forward to watching Nolan(my oldest son and her bone marrow donor) get ready for his prom on Saturday, and a family reunion on Sunday. It will be a full weekend for sure.

Please pray for all of my children. They have been through so much and it's apparent that this is changing who they are. I want to believe they are stronger for it, but they've endured alot of pain and still suffer too. Nolan is taking this the hardest. The younger three 10,12,14 try to put up a strong front, but I can see their sorrow.

I don't know that there is anything more difficult, but I know we will be okay. I know it!!! Just getting everyone else to know it is the thing. Again, to only follow Jonnae's example. She is the epitemy of how to live positively. I'm so very blessed to be her mother and to witness her strength over and over.

Thank you for your continued support and prayer. You have no idea how it lifts me.

Blessings, Denise


4/21/2008 7:58 PM

Some of my Favorties!

I thought I would start a thread with some of my personal favorites. Please add yours. I LOVE trying new things.


#1 Natural Calm. This stuff really works!! I drink a cup before bed and I'm not kidding. I have been sleeping like a baby.



Now for these truffles. YUM!



Braggs Liquid Amino. Oh my heck this is so yummy as a broth in soup.


I'm torn between the two..but I like both peanut butters.





This is yummy in coffee or there are all kinds of flavors and you can get real creative.



this is just plain YUMMY!



Good green tea



PLEASE share some ideas with me. I love new stuff.

XOXOXOXOXOXO

No Pressure...SUCCESSFUL WEEK!!!

So my plan is to have monday and tuesday off. If I feel like it I will throw some extra in. BUT NO PRESSURE!!!

Wednesday will be lower body
tuesday cardio
thursday upper
friday -lower cardio -if time permits NO PRESSURE!!
sat and sun I will see.

meals will be the same ole boring, boring. But that is just how I am and I like it.

chicken, greens, elk meat, apple, strawberries and turkey burger.

maybe one soy latte as a treat??

NO PRESSURE, NO PRESSURE, NO PRESSURE!! I am going to focus on being successful this week. Take one day at a time.

I just know I am ready to succeed...I am ready to let God lead my life and help me be the person He put me on this earth to be. I want to fulfill my ministry!!!!

NO MORE NEGATIVE...STINKIN THINKIN!!!

I want to walk in the spirit and not the flesh. I want to be a light and help others live a peaceful, joyfilled day. I want to speak truth and light in peoples lives. NO MORE listening to negative gossip..no more speaking negative gossip!!!!

I truly believe something is going on with me right now. I went through a storm and now I'm coming out. I see gooooooood things in the future. My spirit is coming ALIVE!!!!

LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: I WILL get my pics, measurements and resting heart rate to Michelle THIS WEEK!!!!

Is this real or fake??

None the less it is CRAZY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPeWwSiAXr0

God is GOOD!

Last night was an emotional one. I received a phone call about 11:30 pm from my son's girlfriends mom. The kids were in a roll over crash. THANK God they are both okay. Pulling up to the accident I went weak all over and lost it. I can't even type this without getting emotional. It brought back the haunting memories of Christa's fatal crash and my cousin Joni's fatal crash. I can't imagine showing up finding out someone has been seriously hurt or died.

Some of you may know that Dustin and I have had our ups and downs. Well last night it felt so good when he gave me huge hug, kissed me and told me he loved me.

So today I am praising Jesus. I am so thankful they are okay.

On a funny note. The fire truck driver asked me to move my car so they could turn around..so I did. I pulled it forward to it's original spot behind the cop car. Two seconds later the cop backed up and smacked me. So we had to report that accident too. LOL

Still eating clean. Workouts are not getting accomplished. Who knew my job would take over my life. Seriously though I WILL find BALANCE and I WILL get my workouts in. Summer is coming (even though it was snowing in Idaho yesterday) and I want to be READY!!!!

Love ya ALL!!

Tracy

PS: I heard this on the radio and I liked it so I'm going to share it. "You don't have to be perfect to seek Jesus, Seeking Jesus is what makes you perfect."

New Week....

Let's have a GREAT one ladies.

XOXOXOXOXO

CHEST/TRIS/SORE TOE AND A BAD CASE OF DOMS!!!

So last night at midnight the phone rang. I jumped up to answer it when BAM I hit my weight bench and some how cut the bottom of my toe open. It is a pretty bad open wound. UGH... may need stitches, but I'm scared spitless.

I won't be doing my intervals for awhile. BOOHOO!!!

I will get my workout complete when I get home.

Eats have been okay.

protein
almonds
turkey burger, asparagas, hot sauce

Forcing myself to eat cause I'm sick to my stomach. I am such a whimp when it comes to wounds and blood.

Everything is going GREAT!!

You ladies ROCK MY WORLD with LOADS of INSPIRATION!!!

XOXOXOXOXO

PS: my lower body is SO SORE that I don't know how I'm going to be able to do it again tomorrow. I WILL get it done though.

A little Change...

Okay..so last night was my 1st BuffMother workout. OH MY HECK!!

I thought I got a good workout at home...BUT I was WRONG. Using the Smith Machine was a new experience. WOW!

I seriously thought I was going to puke three times and by the time I got home I went to bed. I was exhausted, sore, shakey and still pukey.

I am not very strong either. My lower body looks the way it does because I wasn't giving it 110%. I now know what a GOOD lower body workout should feel like.

My confession is. I couldn't finish the workout. I have never pushed myself so hard..even when I was competition training.

I'm going to do whatever it takes to get that killer Bikini Bod for summer.

My eats:

coffee
7:30 protein shake, raspberries, hormone pill and super CLA
9:30 ground turkey breast, CLA
12:00 3 eggwhites, strawberries, cucumber
2:30 Turkey burger, cucumber
5:00 protein
7:30 protein

I know my meals need to improve. It is SO hard for me not to drink the protein. It's quick and easy. BUT I will get better!

Workout:

(NO LAUGHING AT WHAT WEIGHT I USED)

Squats - 10/8/6/10 x 3 = 0/20/40/50 - 50/50/50/50 repeat
Knee Extensions - 10,8,6,10 x 3 - 30/40/50/30 repeat
Leg Curls - 10/8/6/10 x 3 - 20/30/30/20 repeat
walking lunges - 2 x 15 - holding 20 lb dumbbells

Simple 7 for 7

I did not do the Bulgarians (will look these up - never heard of them)
Plie butt squats - legs were like Jello

I am SO embarrassed to admit that I did not finish my workout. The good news is I KNOW I am going to get stronger and I will get through it.

Hope everyone is having a joyful, blessed day.

XOXOXO